quote submitted by halosandhorns
(via leilockheart)
what went on
Have you really seen what goes on in their hearts?
Their cries of help.
Their pain.
Their dilemma
Their confusion
they are trapped
they felt unwanted
and it really makes me want to cry because there is so many people who are like that
Wonders and thoughts flood my mind,
Thinking of the lady that filled my night.
Blurry and intellectual is all I need,
There she is so perfect for me.
Will she ever wonder what she means to me,
Heaven and earth my song will be.
Storms and thunder may rise,
With her smiles and hugs rainbows will be.
My heart will always go to her,
As how dawn may draw near.
I will stay by this sweetheart my whole life,
Protecting and treasuring my bear till I die.
it is how much i have loved
Many people have lived this life without coming close to realizing what is really inside of them. What lies within their heart and what really matters to them most. They might have spent half of their live denying that people really love them or they might not have loved the others too.
Just this day, my grandma passed away. She seemed such an ordinary people though I knew I care enough for her to do extra and she meant special in my heart, what I never know is she matters this much. I still love her. Only when I look back, then I realized where it all came from.
“ life is lived forward, but understood backwards”
Because fearing how the others might react to your love towards them, we choose to shun from showing even the slightest tint of love and care like..no it’s nothing much and pretend it did not matter at all” Because you are so afraid someone will not take your love, take it and handle with care and lock it up with their hearts.
That’s when we lock everything inside. What stays inside might eventually die when no one knows.
Or when we show it, others couldn’t understand and really grasp it and fully consume your love. We rather keep it within ourselves, don’t’ we?
I really pray one day, I can understand what it all means to me, the people, events things and the past. I pray I can understand how much I love them and one day I can tell them with all my heart, how much I love them back too.
I love you so much daddy. Though I could not break through the stone wall you have built around you for so many years.
I love you so much, mama that it hurts me so much that I stop crying.
Almost full
here are times where we rush to understand, to see when things are not lay out properly.. or maybe we couldn’t see it as clear when things are meshed out all over the place.
2 weeks back, xue shen reminded me of something I have forgotten. The cup could not contain anymore water because it has been full
Maybe we have been too hiapped up with the everyday life and details, problems and concerns , the little response others have , the opinions surrounding what could have concerned us, We took them in, bringing them along as we encounter different things. Until it is full.
The constantly emptying of my cup, whether is of the good things or the negative thoughts, feelings are good so that more rooms can be made for better things, to savour, but not to keep. So that every second, or every day can begin anew. Every impression of things and people can be made different because you have thrown away the old ones.
I don’t want to miss another second again.
I don’t want to miss a thing.
Jun 2011
